Date: 2008-03-28 22:14 Subject: :-) Security: Public

How is it that someone who's had 5 hours of sleep and is absolutely EXHAUSTED during the day can be so "awake" when night falls? I don't get it.

I went to dinner with Shawn and his friends last night. A repeat of last week. It was a good time and I really enjoyed myself. I'm just not sure where this is all going... or if I even WANT it to go anywhere. i'm not going to worry myself with all that right now though. I'll just go out and enjoy myself and not worry until I have to.

I made good money today. That was exciting. OH! And I bought the tickets for Ash, Em and I to see "Wicked" in May. I was very surprised when they expressed an interest to see it. It should be fun.

Date: 2007-11-15 14:09 Subject: Give me something to believe in! Security: Public Mood: apathetic

"I don't believe in magic
I don't believe in I-Ching
I don't believe in Bible
I don't believe in Tarot
I don't believe in Hitler
I don't believe in Jesus
I don't believe in Kennedy
I don't believe in Buddha
I don't believe in Mantra
I don't believe in Gita
I don't believe in Yoga
I don't believe in Kings
I don't believe in Elvis
I don't believe in Zimmermen
I don't believe in Beatles
I just believe in me
Yoko and me
And that's reality

The dream is over
What can I say?
The dream is over
Yesterday
I was the dreamweaver
But now I'm reborn
I was the walrus
But now I'm John
And so dear friends
You'll just have to carry on
The dream is over."









A lot of people were pissed when John Lennon first write this... but I think I know EXACTLY what it means... and I feel the same way in many respects...



I don't believe in marriage
I don't believe in love
I don't believe in friendship
I don't believe in family
I just believe in me.
Erica.
That's it.




































"What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender.
What if I say that I'll never surrender?"

Date: 2007-11-13 13:36 Subject: Seriously... Security: Public

I'm going to be more consistant with writing, I swear!!!!





Jessica Vega (now Abito) and Ryan were married this past Saturday. I was a bridesmaid... again. At least I didn't catch the freaking bouquet this time. She looked absolutely beautiful. I usually don't cry at weddings, just because I'm a bit cynical about the whole marriage thing, but I couldn't help but just bawl when she danced with her dad. VERY heartwarming indeed. The whole day, everything was just perfect and I am SO happy for her. I can't wait for she and Ryan to return home from their honeymoon.



Elizabeth and I went to Linbrook for some karaoke last night. After the crappy day I had yesterday, it was just what I needed. The KJ asked me for my information; said something about getting me involved with singing at wedddings/funerals, etc. We'll see if that pans out. I really need to be more pro-active when it comes to my performing career. I can't help but notice how often I "let my fear take the wheel and steer." Lose more weight. Get new headshots. Take some dance classes. STOP MAKING EXCUSES!!!!!




*sigh*




Whatever.

Date: 2007-07-20 21:06 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Well, this is long over-due...




Jess is married now. Has been for 2 weeks, actually. The ceremony was nice. We (the bridesmaids) were all incredibly hot in our dresses as we stood in the hot July sun for 2 HOURS while we posed for pictures. The fact that we had to wear these ugly jackets over our dresses didn't help either. We all got sunburnt also.

Oh!! And I caught the bouquet. Not that it means anything though. It was the fourth bouquet I've caught in the past 2 years and I really don't see myself settling down anytime soon; not only because I have no desire to, but there are no prospects. And that's perfectly fine with me.

I'm going to see Britany and Olivia in "Joseph" tomorrow night. I'd like to see "Side-show" next weekend and somehow I need to find a way to see "Dames at Sea." Why do all my friends have to be in so many different shows at the same time? I have no idea what I will audition for next. Suffice to say it will be a while. I'm SO not doing "Oz" next semester. I really don't understand Jims choices for musicals lately. "Bye Bye Birdie?" "Oz?" What the crap? *sigh* Oh, Jim!



I haven't seen much of my friends this summer. I've been in a weird place and have been excluding myself from most social gatherings for the past couple months. I'm not really sure why, exactly... I think I've become somewhat cynical this past year. I'm not as nice as I used to be, and I think that just comes from being too exhausted from dealing with peoples crap. I'm still nice, yes, but I just have a lower tolerance. I don't know. More on this later, I'm sure.





Anyway, that's it.

Date: 2007-06-09 00:41 Subject: Don't bite the hand that feeds you. Security: Public

Last night (Thursday, June 7th) was Jessica's bridal shower. The bridal shower my mother and I threw for her. My mom doesn't even like Jessica, she just got involved to help me out with the cost of it all (which, without her, would have been more than I could handle. She even OFFERED to help without my asking. VERY nice of her; especially since she usually says "tough" whenever I'm in situation like this.) My mom has good reason to not like Jessica... "I" have good reason to not like Jessica, but I stick around for some reason.... Anyway...

While at the shower, Jessica and I were visiting on the couch and we could hear my mother in the other room telling a story to some of the other ladies who had come. Jessica turned to me and said "You're exactly like your mother." I wasn't sure how she meant for me to take that. I asked "What do you mean?" And she just repeated herself; "You're exactly like your mother." Now, my mom and I do share a few similar traits. We're both loud, we talk a lot, we're animated, procrastinators, etc. But that's about where it ends. In almost all other ways I am like my dad. I replied with "Well, we are both loud and animated and kind fo silly sometimes." Then she said "And you both always have to be the center of attention" (Wha...?) She continued "And when you have kids you will be exactly like her." I just stared at her, shocked that she had the nerve to say that to me. "You will be" she said. This was a new low... even for her. She knows that, although she has some VERY GOOD traits and is a wonderful person, that turning into my mother (especially when I have kids) is my BIGGEST fear and something I have always done EVERYTHING in my power to avoid. Why would she say that to me? First of all, it isn't even true. And Second, if it were true, that's not something you'd actually TELL a person! Especially just out of the blue like that. AND, on top of that, IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PARTY MY MOTHER AND I ARE THROWING FOR HER!!!!! OH MY GOSH!!! How ungrateful and MEAN can one person be? I'm done. I'll stay somewhat close to her until the wedding is over (because I am a bridesmaid) but after that, I am DONE with her. I've put up with this crap from her for YEARS. It ends NOW.

Date: 2007-06-06 20:32 Subject: Happy freakin' birthday to me... Security: Public

Why is it that people I barely even talk to have called to wish me happy birthday today... yet my "best friend" has not? She didn't even remember my birthday. My "friend" of 20 years. Yeah, some friendship. I'm over it. I'm FINALLY over it. If she doesn't feel it necessary to commit MY BIRTHDAY to memory, then screw her. I'm done.

Date: 2007-05-31 08:30 Subject: Being ALIVE Security: Public

I've come to the conclusion that I think too much when I'm bored and in doing that, one of two things happens; I either become incredibly motivated, productive and EXTREMELY happy (momentarily)... OR... I depress myself (again, momentarily.) I've realized that, generally speaking, I am neither happy NOR sad (although more the former than the latter.) I just simply... "am."

Fear plays too big a part in my life. I've heard it said that change is good... and I believe that. But why is change so hard? I guess the familiar is comfortable; even when it's boring and unproductive. Although, when one stays "comfortable", there are no new experiences and there is NO growth. Also... why do I live life somewhat haunted by the past? Well, not so much "haunted", but I think I sometimes do go through life under the assumption that all the "nay-sayers" were correct...






Anyway, I don't really know where I was going with all this. Just thinking out loud, I guess. Well, not thinking "out loud" (obviously... as this post is not audible...) Uh...yeah...

Date: 2007-05-26 22:40 Subject: I'm REALLY losing it! Security: Public

Tonight I celebrated my birthday (also my mothers birthday, AND my grandmothers) with my family. We all met up at Applebee's in Chino, had dinner and did the whole 'gift exchange' thing. I always feel I recieve more than I probably deserve. My family is very generous.

I was a little irritated with myself when I got home, however. It seems I have misplaced some of the gift cards I recieved from Christmas... one being $200 to Best Buy that I had put towards my "new computer fund." I need one DESPERATELY. And now I just set myself back $200. It's VERY annoying. I also had $50 to Kohls, one to Barnes and Noble and a couple to Borders. I'm getting more frustrated with myself the more I write about this subject. So I'll end here.


Until tomorrow...

Date: 2007-05-24 23:01 Subject: THE END Security: Public

The semester ended (for me) with the musical review last night. It went ok, except that during the first performance I had to cough SO BADLY during "Maybe This Time." It sounded like I had a bad cold, or had lost my voice or something. *sigh* Oh well. What can ya do?

I'm excited to be starting a step aerobics class this summer... get my butt in shape!


Other than that I've just been busy running around trying to get everything in order for Jess's bridal shower which will take place on the 9th. She forwarded the guest list to me, but for some reason my lame computer didn't save it (when I specifically remember SAVING IT to "my documents." *sigh*), so I have asked her to send it to me again. Sheesh, I'm gettin' these things out really late. Oh well.

I'm still waiting for Davids Bridal to call me back out my bridesmaids dress. I was told it would be here no later than June 15th, so I still have a couple weeks left to go. I'm just worried about having the time to make the necessary alterations. Sheesh... I buy a $215 dress and then still have to pay for alterations. LAME!







Ashley is still dating the old man. She's an idiot.

Date: 2007-05-20 01:51 Subject: Ugh Security: Public

This has been an interesting weekend so far, to say the least.


Last night (Friday. Even though it's 2 hours into Sunday, I still consider it Saturday because I have not yet gone to bed and woken up again.) Anyway, Friday night I curled up into bed sometimes around 11 or so. I had to to work the next day at 7am, so I made an effort to actually go to bed at a somewhat reasonable hour. More reasonable that usual. Moving on... I had just barely laid my head on my pillow to fall asleep, when my phone rang. It was Krystal, a friend of mine from work. To make a long story short, her car was at a garage in Covina and she had no way home from work, so she called me. I got dressed and went to get her and take her home. A few minutes after we arrived at her appt, we got a call from Karen (another work friend) who had just been pulled over and was being tested for a DUI. So, we got in my car and drove over to where she was to see if maybe the cops would release her to me (yeah, right... worth a shot though, I guess.) She turned out to be WAY under the legal limit. Whew!!

*sigh* Just another night.


Tomorrow Roxana and I are going to see Brian and Amanda in "Phantom." Should be fun.



~Erica

Date: 2007-05-16 18:53 Subject: Tripple Threat review Security: Public

The lack of maturity and respect of my peers is just shocking and INCREDIBLY disheartening. Why is it so difficult to just sit still and SHUT THE HELL UP????!! I swear, they all need ritalin. A good strong dose, at that. Jeez.

Next semesters musical has been selected. The Wizard of Oz. I doubt I will be auditioning. The only role I find even remotely interesting is that of the Wicked Witch... and she doesn't even sing! Besides that, I'll be cast as either Glinda or Aunt Em before I'm even considered for the witch. Well... that's how it goes, I guess. Curse being tall and nice! Anyway, I'm hoping to finally move on from Cypress College. Not that I haven't more than enjoyed my time spent there, I just really feel it's time to move on and experience more. We'll see, I guess.

Date: 2007-05-16 00:31 Subject: Fear Security: Public

I'm scared out of my freaking mind. I need to be in another show. A GOOD one this time. I'm scared. I'm not good enough. "I suck, I suck, I suck, I suck..."

























"I'm climbing uphill, Daddy; climbing uphill."




Always climbing uphill.




Trying to live up to impossible expectations...




Expectations, I might add, that I do not always place on myself.













When will it be good enough?

*sigh*

Date: 2007-05-13 14:34 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

Last night I took my mom to see the "Secret Garden" staring Roxana. She was BRILLIANT as Martha. I was a complete wreck throughout most of the second act. Such a beautiful show. I had a great time with my mom as well. We went to dinner before the show (my treat, in honor of Mothers Day...which is today...but I wont be seeing her today. Work. Blech.)

I'll end this here, I know it wasn't a long entry. And I will no longer vow to do better at updating this thing. I never follow through anyway.


That's it.

Date: 2007-03-21 15:26 Subject: An update. (Just for you, Roxana) Security: Public

"Island" closed on Sunday. I cannot begin to describe how happy I am that it's over. Does that sound bad? Probably. Normally I am so sad when a show I'm in comes to a close, except for the past couple ("Birdie" and "Island.") I think part of it is because in both casts, I was one of the oldest people... and I really can't even stand people my own age, for the most part. And, in the case of "Island anyway, no one took the show seriously and it was PAINFULLY obvious. I wont go into detail about this, I'll just say that I was terribly disappointed with the end result. I worked my a** off for that show. *sigh* Moving on...

My sister is the biggest idiot in the world. I love her with all my heart, but every now and then she'll do something that really show's off her immaturity and she makes a big fool out of herself. She's dating YET ANOTHER guy (the girl dates more than anyone I know.) However, this guy has two kids and is 41 years old!!! Ashley just turned 20! She tells me "Oh, Erica... he's a total D.I.L.F." (which makes me want to vomit), or she also says "He looks exactly like Tommy Lee." Tommy Lee is one of the most disgusting people on the planet. There is nothing at all appealing about Tommy Lee. I think she's just doing this because she wants to shock everyone (immaturity.) Also though... and nothing against my sister... but there's something wrong with a man of that age who wants a 20 year old girlfriend. What can they possibly have to talk about? What do they have in common? She's an idiot.


Ok, that's all.

~Erica

Date: 2007-01-31 22:40 Subject: Maybe This Time... Security: Public Mood: weird

Maybe this time, I'll be lucky
Maybe this time, he'll stay
Maybe this time
For the first time
Love won't hurry away

He will hold me fast
I'll be home at last
Not a loser anymore
Like the last time
And the time before

Everybody loves a winner
So nobody loved me;
'Lady Peaceful,' 'Lady Happy,'
That's what I long to be
All the odds are in my favor
Something's bound to begin
It's got to happen, happen sometime
Maybe this time I'll win




It's amazing how well I can identify with this song... especially the "everybody loves a winner" part. Jim continues to tell me that I can go even further with the emotion in this song... but I don't think he understands that if I go any further, I'll have an emotional breakdown during class. *sigh* Well... if that's what he wants...


Until next time...

~Erica

Date: 2007-01-17 01:14 Subject: Finally back... and changed a bit... Security: Public

Ok... I'm through with being flakey about my journal writing. I used to be so good at this. Whatever happened?

Today I auditioned for "Once On This Island." I don't really care which role I get, I'm just REALLY sick of always being thrown in the ensemble. I want to actually have lines and sing solos. I'm tired of just filling in the gaps all the time. I don't mean to be a diva about it... I really don't. I just think I deserve better than that. I was also been convinced to audition for "Huck Finn." I'd really much rather be in the musical, but there's nothing wrong with keeping my options open, right? Tomorrow I find out if I get a call back, and if I get one, I have to go back on Thursday... and I assume I'll know the results by late Thursday night. If I don't, then I'll just assume I wasn't cast... which will suck. Anyrate, I'm REALLY trying to be positive about this... and if I don't make it, there'll always be shows at other theaters I can audition for... (Yeah, I'll just keep telling myself that. *wink*)





Is it too late to have a New Years resolution? I hope not. I've been thinking a lot lately about a quote I heard recently in an episode of Greys Anatomy:

Christina (Dr. Yang) to George (Dr. O'Mally): "If you want crappy things to stop happening to you, then stop accepting crap and demand something better."

There it is. I'm not going to allow myself to be walked on ANYMORE... especially after a recent experience with an idiotic someone... In a nutshell, don't tell me you're going to call me when you have no intention of doing so. More on this later...

Anyway, that's all for now.

Date: 2006-09-18 02:10 Subject: Hope Security: Public

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,
And sings the tune without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gail is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the strangest sea;
Yet, never, in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.




-Emily Dickinson

Date: 2006-09-15 22:21 Subject: OH MY GOSH!!! Security: Public

This week has been NUTS!

On Wednesday my purse was stollen while I was at work. I had EVERYTHING in that purse. EVERYTHING! It was taken from one of the lockers in the break room. There are cameras in the break room, so Vic (one of my managers) got the tape so we could look at it. We did see an image going into that locker, but the picture was so dark and fuzzy that we could not make out who it was... and it could have been ANYBODY. There's a lot of construction work going on outside the restaurant and the workers come in and use the bathrooms in our break room...so...yeah... :( It sucks. I now have no liscense, no school I.D., no work I.D., no credit cards, no checks, and no shiny, pretty razor phone. I'm now stuck with this cheap, piece of crap phone until I have the $300 to buy a decent one. I hate dishonest people.

This weekend I have to :
-Call the social security office to have them "red flag" my ss#
-Get the entire lock system on my car changed (my keys were in my purse)
-Go to the DMV and get a new liscense

This whole process has just been one HUGE pain in my butt. I already called and cancelled all my credit cards, so that's all taken care of.




Well, besides all that, rehearsals for Birdie are going well. I still don't really know the music, but Kent keeps reassuring me that it's easy and I'll pick it up quickly.

Anyway, I'm tired.

Date: 2006-09-12 00:04 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I had my first rehearsal with the Bye, Bye Birdie cast today. I'm so happy!!!!!

Date: 2006-09-10 19:04 Subject: A bit of relief Security: Public

I talked to Jim Hormel yesterday about "Birdie." I guess I'm in the show now! I was feeling really, REALLY depressed about not being in musical theater and not doing the show, so I called him and asked if he still needed people for the adult ensemble, and he said he'd love to have me. It is only ensemble, but I could really care less. I'm just happy to be in a show again!

I've come to realize a few things over the past few weeks. I really, REALLY need to get focused on my career and where the heck I am heading. Time is going by SO fast, and although it is a good idea to "stop and smell the roses" now and then, I've been smelling too many roses lately. Time to buckle down. With that said, here's what I plan to accomplish...wait, no...what I WILL accomplish before the start of spring semester:

~Lose more weight
~Take dance lessons (after "Birdie")
~New headshots

I'd also like to get some material ready to record. I've never wanted to be a recording artist, but I think it might be beneficial to have. Before I do that, though, I need to hire a pianist...and before I do that, I need to have money to hire a pianist...and then I'll need money to pay a record engineer. Ugh! All this crap that requires money! Oh! There's another goal: SAVE MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, that's all.

Date: 2006-09-08 13:55 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

It's been almost a year since I have been in a show... and I'm feeling down. I keep trying to search on google for any upcoming theatre auditions somewhere in my vicinity, and I have found a few, but they are for equity performers and I am not a member. I wish I had auditioned for "Bye Bye Birdie"... or that I was taking Musical Theatre this semester. I have my voice lessons every Thursday, but that just doesn't fully satisfy my NEED to perform! *sigh* I wish I didn't have to work.

Date: 2006-08-30 19:12 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I gave myself a fat lip today before work. Don't ask how. It's embarassing.

Summer has just ended which means business has completely DROPPED. I only made $90 today and I was in a 4 table station. If I had that same station during the summer, I probably would have made a good $140 or so. I suspect it will start to pick up again once the Holidays get closer. I hope! :-)

I got in a car accident yesterday. I was on my way home from work and was stopped at a red light. I had an itch on my arm, so I scratched it while looking at it. I noticed the light had turned green and so, without looking (because I was scratching) and started to move forward, rear-ending the car in front of me. I was so mad. I just barely got my car, and I crashed it. We both pulled over to the side of the road and got out of our cars to look at the damage. There was nothing wrong at all!! Well, nothing aside from a bent liscence-plate and a little chipped paint. The guy I hit was really nice about it too. He said he didn't see anything wrong his car, except for the chipped paint, but he wouldn't be able to get a good look at it until he got home. He also assured me that he wasn't "one of those jerks who'll try and get money outta me", which (of course) I appreciate. He said I'd only hear from hime if there was something seriously wrong, but to not expect it. *whew* I'm crossing my fingers!

Well, that's all.

~Erica

Date: 2006-08-26 11:33 Subject: Finally, an update. Security: Public Mood: tired

OK, here is my LONG OVERDUE entry. I'll begin by bringing everything "up to speed" on my life--

I now work at the Rainforest Cafe and have been for the past 6 weeks or so. No more Marie Callenders:(. Although I do miss the people I worked with there, it was time for me to move on. (I HAD to move on. I needed more money!) Working there has been good so far. I've made a few "work friends" and it's been fun. And the money ain't bad either!

School started this past week. I'm only taking jazz dance and step aerobics. I NEED to get in better shape. No shows or musical theater class for me this semester, which makes me sad, but I have my reasons. I've made a deal with myself. No more musical theater class, no head shots, and no more shows until I've learned how to dance better and gotten in better shape. I think once this happens things will be MUCH different. I know I'll have more confidence in my ability and I'll fit the description of a wider variety of characters (not too much wider though... I am 6'1'', afterall, and nothing can be done about that!) I'm also really going to work more on my voice. When I "make my come-back" I want to be a MUCH better performer all around, and I want Jim to take notice. I'm SO sick of being cast as ensemble all the time. It was ok at first when I did Grease, but it's now over 3 years later. Have I not improved at all since then? Will I always be cast based on my ability (or lack, thereof) when I auditioned for Grease? Or maybe I'm simply not that good. Ugh! Anyway, moving on...

Last night was fun. Amanda Kay and I went to see Brian Chapmans new show "Once On This Island." Amanda and I did "Into the Woods" together last year and this was the first time she and I have hung out since, like, December! It was fun and good to catch up. Afterwards Brian came with us to BJ's.


I'm singing tomorrow in Church.

I leave for Las Vegas this Friday. I'm going with some of the same people I went with last year. I think (and hope) this time will be a better experience. I'm going with Amanda (Walker... different Amanda than the above mentioned), Jess, Rob -Courtney (Jess and Amanda's friend from work)-Kurt, Brian and Aaron (Rob's Groomsmen)- Brittany (Aarons girlfriend), Andrea (Robs sister) and a different Brittany (Amandas sister... all these gals are the bridesmaids). *Whew* We're leaving Friday and returning home on Monday... Labor Day weekend. Traffic is going to be hell. I was talking to Matt, a guy I work with, about it the other day. He said that he and his friends went to Vegas over New Years last year and it took them 12 hours to drive back home! (Normally it only takes 3 or 4.) Yeah, I'm not looking forward to that. I don't even know if I have the time off work for it! I'll find out when I go into work later tonight.

Jess said she'd be really upset if I wasn't able to go to Vegas. Out of the group we have going, she and I are the only people who don't drink. Besides that, Jess is the Maid of Honor and has been putting up with Amanda's poor attitude about everything lately. Apparently, Amanda has turned into "Bridezilla." (Oh, I guess I should have mentioned that this Vegas trip is for she and Robs Bachelor/Bachelorette parties before they get married next month.) Anyway, I hope all hell doesn't break loose this weekend.


Well, that's all.

Date: 2006-07-11 12:00 Subject: 5 questions... Security: Public

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions of a very intimate and creepily personal nature, or not so creepy/personal.
3. You WILL update your blog with the answers to the questions. (Obey... Obey...)
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions



*********************************************** My answers *************************************************


1. If you weren't a singer and actress, what would your hobby be? What would you do with yourself?

If I wasn't a singer or actress?! Oh, goodness.. I don't know what I'd do! I suppose I'd finish school as a history major and then 'maybe' become a high school history teacher (that'd be difficult for me though, as I LOATHE teenagers.) Or I'd like to become a counselor and counsel adolescents who have lead troubled lives. (All this work with teenagers! Maybe I don't hate them as much as I thought...)

2. Did you get the job at Rainforest Cafe? (So I could just ask you that normally... whatever *g*)

I DID get the job at Rainforest Cafe! I begin training on the 16th. Woohoo!!

3. What would your ideal road trip be like? People, the places you'll visit, how much time you'll spend sightseeing, how many rolls of film and journals you'll fill, what kind of car you'll take, who'll do most of the driving...

My ideal roadtrip... I think I'd most like to just go by myself (No compromising and missing out on what "I" want to see that way. *wink*) I'd start off just driving up the California coastline, going into Oregon and then Washington. Then I'd start going east (Idaho, the Dakota's, Minnesota, etc), down through Illinois, Ohio... then up to Pennsylvania, New York, Vermont, Massachusetts, Maine...then down south again...Maryland, Virginia, West Virginia, the Carolina's, Georgia, Florida... then west...Alabama, Mississippi, Louisiana, Texas, New Mexico, Arizona, and them back home to good ol' southern CA. (You may have noticed I left out the middle states. I've already been there once and, believe me, there's not much to see a second time.) I'd likely take A LOT of pictures of beautiful scenery, or people I'd have come in contact with. I think that's what I'd look forward to the most; the people I'd meet and the many different stories I'd hear at each place. I would especially like to mingle with the gypsies in New Orleans. I'd likely do most of the driving in whatever car I could get my hands on (that was, of course, in good condition. I don't want to break down in the middle of Indiana and have to have my parents wire some money to me. That'd suck.)

4. If you were to be cast in one role, any role (that you could logically play) in one show, and stuck in that role for the rest of your career, eight shows a week, with no or minimal vacation time... What role would you choose?

That's easy... Madame Thenardier from 'Les Miserables.' She's an AWESOME character; full of personality (of course, it's a rather nasty personality...but still!) Also, Les Miserables, even though it's overdone and get SO MUCH hype, is such a wonderful story of repentance and redemption. It has changed so many lives and sends such an incredible message. I would much rather be part of something so enormously life-changing, than "the next best thing".. if that makes sense.

5. Is there anyone in your life whom you would die for?

Oh yes. My parents, sisters...likely anyone whom I held closely to my heart (that's A LOT of people...)

Date: 2006-07-11 02:27 Subject: Anxious Security: Public

I miss performing. I REALLY need to be in a show quick... or I just might die.

Date: 2006-07-06 18:34 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public

I'm a single woman... once again. I'm relieved!

Date: 2006-06-18 02:28 Subject: Why... Security: Public

am I awake? I got home from work about 2 hours ago... and I have to be back to work at 7:30am. It's Fathers Day, therefore management is expecting a BUSY day at Marie Callenders for the Sunday brunch. I don't see why everyone thinks it'll be busy though. Sure, we were busy on Mothers day...but I have a theory about that. You see... most men are completely stupid when it comes to doing even the simplest domestic chore, so "taking Mom out for brunch" is just the easy way to go. However, on Fathers day, the wives do the cooking, so there is no need to dine out. So, I really don't think it'll be too terribly busy tomorrow. I could be wrong, but I doubt it. We shall see!!!

Steve and I have both been sick this week. He's had a bad sore through and I've just been really congested... and I lost my voice. :( I HATE losing my voice! If I can't sing... I've got nothin'!!




In other news, the search of a new job continues...nothing new to report there. Gosh, I hope that changes!!!

Date: 2006-06-10 00:33 Subject: Let it go... just let it go!!! Security: Public Mood: annoyed

This will be a slight change of tone from my previous entry...


Steve annoyed the crap out of me tonight. We were going to go to the movies...the 9 o'clock showing. We got to the theater and bought our tickets... but when we got inside the theater, there were absolutely NO SEATS left. None at all. They had over-sold the movie. We weren't the only people who didn't have seats either. About 7 other people were screwed over as well. Anyway, that was kind of annoying and inconvenient... but we went to guest services and got our money back. These things happen sometimes, right? No biggie, I thought. We'd just go find something else to do or go to another theater or something...but he was SO MAD over that whole movies situation. He just kept dwelling on it, and dwelling on it, and allowed himself to get so angry... and then STAYED angry! I told him "I know this sucks, but don't let it ruin your night." And he responded with "The night's already ruined because we weren't able to see the movie" and he just was so pesimistic and in such a bad mood the rest of the night. And because he allowed that to get him so upset, and nothing I was saying or trying to do worked...it kinda brought me down also, and I really didn't like that. I mean... no, we didn't get to see the movie. The circumstances suck, yes... but getting all angry and upset over it wont change a thing. So why not just say to yourself "Well, it's just one of those things" and MOVE ON?!! AH!!!














We're not fighting and I still wanna be with him, this just really irritated me is all. Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day.

Date: 2006-06-02 00:23 Subject: Meeting the parentals... Security: Public

I met Steve's parents today. His dad, Steve... and his mom, Roberta. VERY nice people. I got to their house just barely after Steve (my Steve) got home from work. He was talking to his dad in the driveway when I was walking up to the house. (My) Steve introduced me to him. He was nice and very funny! Then we went inside the house and I met Roberta, his mom. I felt like a giant next to her. She was so short! Anyway, Steve (my Steve) left shortly after the introduction to go take a shower and "freshen up" (he's an electrician and gets all grungy at work sometimes.) So, I was left in the kitchen with his mom for about 20 minutes. It wasn't awkward at all though. She was very good about making me feel comfortable. She was a real sweet lady, and our conversation flowed very nicely. Apparently she really, really loves me...at least that is what Steve keeps telling me. *Whew* lol!! It was good. A very good meeting.

We then left his house and played some frisby-golf and then went to dinner before meeting up with his friends, Sarah and Larry. They're hilarious! I had already met them once before and really enjoyed myself. I had a great night. :)





Jess made reservations for my birthday at Bobby McGee's for tomorrow night for me, Steve, herself, Mike, Amanda, Robert, Jessica Vega and Ryan... and Ashley "might" show up. I'm excited! Jess and Ashley have met Steve... but the others haven't. Amanda and Jess are pretty protective of me, but Jess already approves, so I know Amanda will too. I'm just excited!

Date: 2006-05-20 14:38 Subject: "People in Motion" Security: Public Mood: content

Last night Steve and I went to dance concert at Cypress where we met up with Jillian, Kevin and Crystal (all people I work with.) They came to support Jenn (another girl we work with.) I came to support, not only her, but Roxana, Melissa, Phoebe, Kenn Patrick, Aria and Vanessa. I really, REALLY enjoyed myself. All of the pieces were very original. Some were...interesting and kinda weird (some of the modern pieces), but everyone did a wonderful job. I wish I could dance.


I had a meeting at Marie Callenders at 8 this morning. I didn't even get home until after 4, so it was a struggle getting out of bed. I wonder if I should have even gone to sleep in the first place. We got our new uniforms today (FINALLY!) They're going to look SO much better than that khaki mess we had before. All servers wear blue shirts, black pants and black aprons.



Anyway, that's all for now.



Time to do laundry.